Deviation

hi, 
upon getting a response to my ban appeal and seeing it has been put on hold and not instantly denied i feel i should add more as i appreciate that the time has been put into looking into it and giving me a potential chance of getting back on  the server.  i don't think my initial message shown just how much i would like to be able to get back into the city. 
what i did was extremely immature and at the time in my pov it was just a childish back and forward on a discord call with some kid and the past couple months all i have done is regret making a statement like i did as i would never even  act on it ( or even know how to do it ), if i knew making a stupid threat like that would ever impact my gameplay or access to cmg i would have kept my mouth shut and from this situation i have matured and would never dare dream of acting like this on the internet i cringe when i think about it. it is not me at all. with regards to the ban evading all i can do is apologise and would apologise over and over it's hard to justify stupidity especially when you regret it but i guess in the most honest way possible all i can say is i love the server and the several groups of great people on there and just at one point was willing to act on stress and curiosity rather than wait it out with my fingers crossed to be unbanned. i apologise yet again i know how strongly this is looked at and just think i didnt stop and think of the bigger picture. it would mean a lot to me to be given another chance i know a lot of people say this but the time away has been well and truly used to reflect on the stupidity and i know love to be able to get back on and prove i could be a valuable member of the community and prove im not the idiot i made myself out to be. i have been watching bodycams the whole time ive been off and am aching to get back into some good rp and the events that have been happening recently, no other servers cut it for me this was my first and most enjoyed place to play on. i would like to potentially look into taking rp to another level and having a purpose in the city like nhs or maybe even police in the future rather then get involved in the constant fights. 
i would take any measure to ensure you can watch me closely to make sure my regret is the truth and not just a blag on a appeal to try win my chance back on, i could do things  such as using a bodycam everytime i play, or anything you can suggest i would just really like to be back.
i understand that appeals must be irritating and u probably read the same speel everyday but i mean every word that i say and the fact my appeal hasn't been instantly denied has made me feel even more strong about the chance i may actually  be able to get back on and enjoy the city again properly 
thank you and hope to hear back soon - have a good day...

i was told by you on my unban appeal to wait until the first of this month, i waited a little extra to let the time pass, would mean the world if we could get into a team speak call & potentially sort out like a few rules for me to be unbanned